Today has been an off day for me. Last night Chase woke me up saying he wasn't feeling very good-his throat was hurting. But he was able to go right back to sleep so I didn't think much more about it. I got up this morning and had my time with Jesus and then decided I would wake Reese up first because he is the hardest to get up. When I went to wake up Chase he was still feeling yucky so I decided to keep him home. That was the first change to the day. Then when I sat down to do Reese's school work with him I felt totally defeated. Really am I able to teach my children their "abc's"? He was doing so good for a while and here lately it is like he has hit a block wall. I just don't know if I am really doing the right thing. I decided to end after just doing explode the code. I figured I would work on getting some other things in order. I called Taylor's mom to talk about Tay's wisdom teeth coming out and an hour later we finally got off the phone. Some how my call turned into an exhausting conversation about all this mess that has been going on with Tay and her mom. Some people can just really drain me - and she is one of them for sure. As I was trying to get off the phone with her Tay pulled in. I filled her in on some of the things that were discussed which was just as taxing on me because I could see the hurt that it was causing Taylor to know that her mom isn't going to see the whole picture. I no more get done talking to Tay and my bestie from Nevada called to tell me about her mom, who has cancer and is not doing well at all. Then to boot . . . I realized at 2 I forgot to take my meat out for dinner. Now I have a headache and I really just want to go lay in a hot tub some where and have a nice glass of wine and chill. But I guess that will have to wait for another day.
The other day Reese had a headache so he put some band-aide's on it to make him feel better. I don't just want to put a band-aide on the things that hurt I do want to fix them. But so many things in life, like a headache seem to just need to run their cores. - But you know, when I asked Reese if his head felt any better with the band-aides he said, "yes!" It's funny how our mind is so powerful over our "feelings".
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Maybe it was just that kind of day....because I had one of those too. Exhausted, overwhelmed, under qualified...you name it. It had my name on it today. But, I know each day is new, and that Jesus calms the storm. I am focusing on that :) love you, aleatha!!!
Aleatha...just wanted to remind you that kids know its about to be Christmas...and it is so hard to focus. Really all Reece wants to do is bake cookies, sing carols, and watch Christmas movies snuggled up with his Mom. (If he doesn't I know that is what I want to do!)lol! When I taught high school these kids would shut down on December 2nd. I'd say..time for Christmas break..now where are those cookie cutters? I love you...thankfully, His mercy is knew..every single morning!
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