Night Terrors

Have you ever experienced Night terrors? They are awful to say the least. I have never personally had one but I watched Chase have them for years. They started when he was about 9 months old. He would start crying and thrashing around uncontrollably. He was not actually awake at these moments although there were a couple of times when his eyes were open. When they first started I was still nursing Chase. I tell this part because nursing fixed everything in his little world. Everything except these terrible moments. Finally, I learned the only thing I could do was hold him and love him. To wake someone up when they are experiencing a night terror is the worst thing you can do for them.

I believe I have been experiencing a "night terror" for the past two years. I didn't known that the housing market was going to crash. I didn't know that Eric's income was going to drop as much as it has. And I sure didn't know that I was going to just need to be held by my heavenly father. But that is just what he has done. He has loved me and held me so I didn't fall and get hurt worse than I was already hurting. Just like I did for Chase. I couldn't take his pain or fears away, all I could do was try to help him feel as secure as he could in those moments.

Well, this is what God has been doing for me. He has helped me to feel secure in my moments. He has sent great, christain friends my way to give a hug when all that would help is a hug. He has sent a listening ear more times than I can count. He has blessed me with people in my life that have lifted me up in prayer. God has allowed me to have my husband. A man who is "my" man. Above all this he has taught me that sometimes the only thing we can do is just hold someone and let time go by. I thank God that he never woke me up that he just kept holding and loving me!